by Squalor

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This E.P. has been a long time coming. It was an idea lyrically in my(Drew) head for a few years, and the music is some of the raunchiest we've ever come by.

Sometime you write music, and sometimes it writes itself.

this album is the most personal I've ever been, and was the hardest we have ever worked on a release since our forming.

I hope it stands out to you the way it does to us.

To everyone I've ever loved,
I am sorry.


released January 2, 2019

Recorded and mastered by Trey Hanawalt at Lost State recordings.


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Track Name: Life, In Metaphors
I'll haunt you, I'll fucking haunt you.

I'll hang myself from a tree outside your house,
To remind you of all the things that you forgot about.

Dying out, Slow decay,
Cut it short, Bury me,
I'm no longer holding on,
I can't wait until I'm gone.

Just let me go.
Track Name: Group Therapy
I want to feel the dirt on my face,
I want to choke on it, yeah I won't complain.
the weight is nothing compared to the weight of living.
I can feel my lungs caving in,
I'm not fighting the feeling of giving up.
Yeah I've had enough, and I'm ready to leave this world.

You won't ever hear me scream.

I know it seems like a selfish way out,
But I can't keep crawling through shit,
Barely getting by.
A slave to medicine
I'm no good at anything.

No one will miss me.

The silence feels soothing.
Muffling my pain.
Cold, wet darkness,
Never felt so comforting,
And I can't wait,
for my last breath.

Put an end to my suffering.
Track Name: Fears/Nightmares

I can't see for the third time this week.
I can't believe that I'm laying in my piss,
And sleeping in my vomit,

Red again!
Blood again!
Red again!

why cant I just choke up and swallow?

My life makes waking up horrifying.


I'm choking on the devils dick,
You're dehydrated I can fucking taste it.
People say misery loves company,
But I just love being covered in your mistakes.

Does this make you feel uncomfortable?
The loathing of a dying soul.

Leave me at arms length,
You can pretend you love me when I'm gone.
Track Name: Where's The Punishment?
Start cutting at the throat,
It's the only way to go.
Take away their vocal chords,
Take away everything they've stolen.

You're a liar
A cancer,
A nightmare.

(I'm so sick of the victim blaming, pro-rapist bullshit. we need to stand up for the fucking victims and fight back, because what we are doing is not enough)

We are stronger than our enemies.
We need to drag the fucking lake.
Break their frail dicks.
Make them regret ever living.

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